Chapter 1: Leakage

A part of me leaked while playing DotA on 24th July.

The anger, the hatred in my eyes, triggered something.

I was there, trying to play the best that I could. We were playing together with people who defeated us the previous round, in other words, allies.

It all started smoothly, nice microing and harassing done by all heroes. And then the horror started.

I had about 2,000 gold, I was using Jah`rakal and was 600 away from my Demon Edge.

"Just a few more creeps and I will be one step closer to victory"

Level 7. In, my lane was a witch doctor, known for its healing abilities and multiple stuns. Well, we could and can work well together. The opposite enemy was a Skeleton King. We helped each other in turns.

Skeleton King ran forward and storm bolted us (a stun projectile shaped like a hammer). I took the initiative to blind him (so that some of his attempts to hit witch doctor would miss entirely) and continued shooting at him. Witchdoctor turned back and used his stun. The little ball bounced around Skeleton King and witch doctor turned back to kill more creeps.

Just as he turned back, another enemy appeared from the darkness and impaled (yet another Area of Effect Stun) us. I was pretty horrified as he used his ultimate spell and chased up. Needless to say, witch doctor and I died. Well, now I'm at 1,800 and need 800 more to buy my Demon Edge, a step back from victory.

Soon I was back killing creeps in bottom lane and witch doctor decided to go to middle lane. Skeleton King was there happily killing creeps too. It was a tradition to report if a hero was gone from his lane (there are 3 lanes) so that we can be alert of backstabs like the one earlier. Skeleton King went missing and I reported yea. Soon Skeleton King resurfaced from the darkness and threw a storm bolt at me, yea, so what? I'm not gonna die from that. From the darkness, another hero appeared! Queen of Pain, she shadowstriked me (does damage and slow over time) and I slowed to a crawled.

"DAMMIT! Why won't this people report missing!?" I said to myself and typed in the computer to remind them to report missing the next time.

Lucky for me, I manage to survive. As I was on my way back to base to heal, Sand King appeared out of no where and impaled me! 1 hit and I was dead since I was low on health.

The fury and the anger spilled out of me. These people obviously did not care about winning or losing. It was our game in the first place. They crashed the party and wanted to play. We had a 3v3 match ready and they crashed. They had 4 people so it was a split. 2 people over our side and the other 2 over their side. They were also not happy about it.

I had already said. If you're not happy that you're not with your friends in this arrangement then leave. We did not ask you to play with us. They did not do so but still complained, what irritants.

I typed and insulted my team for not reporting since I was now 800 LESS from Demon Edge AGAIN! (I gained back until 2,000 gold before Queen of Pain appeared) What finally infuriated me was that he had the cheek to argue back when he was in the wrong!

I am a serious type of person when playing, I do things that are good for the team and I do my best to win it, unless the team does not want to win it.

I scolded the people in charge of the lane Sand King and Queen of Pain was in NOOB. They were already in the wrong and they were still so obstinate, unwilling to change. They challenged me to a 1v1 and I refused again and again with a constant reply of LOL. Exchanges of vulgars were involved.

I played with their minds. When they asked if I was scared and dare not reply to them, I would reply with a LOL, signifying that I gave in as I repeated it many a time. But I retorted with a vulgarity. Just when they thought the waves were calm, a tsunami came and again and they started to argue back with me. Me? I just replied LOL again and again. It was so much easier typing LOL then a string of long sentences. And so much more Evil. Defending their attacks again and again just to see them tired and weary.

It pleases me to see that I was in control.

The game was disrupted due to this heated exchange and we finally lost. Me having only 4 deaths and them? About 11 or 12 and still trying to challenge me to a 1v1.

I remained the victor in my own way and in my mind games. And if you, the person whom I argued with at the lan shop, have died so many times already, it proves something, you're one retarded nutshell. Empty vessel makes the most noise. 1v1? Tsk! Go home and sleep.

Infuriated and angry I was. After that, Jun Hao played a game of 1v1 and he won, obviously. We left the lan shop. The next time I see these losers again, I'm going to make sure I kill them the first match to stop their mindless babbling.

You know.. Its so much more fun to make people handicapped than to kill them. Making a person lose his/her ears/fingers/jaw is enough to make them suffer a lifetime.

Rant complete. Chapter 1: Leakage complete.




Crazy Frog We are the champions !

Ding A Dang Dong We're The Champions

We are the champions my friend
And we'll keep on fighting 'til the end
we are the champions, we are the champions
No time for losers 'cos we are the champions of the world.

(ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding....)

Ding A Dang Dong We're The Champions

C'mon

Ding a dang dong let's rock that sound (ding ding)
Everybody hear what's going down (dom dom)
Ding a dang dong we've reached the top (ding ding)
Time and again from the penalty spot (bom bom bom)

Ding a dang dong in the stadium (ding-a-dang-dong ding-a-dang-dong)
Cos it's a goal we have won (ding-a-dang-dong we're the champions)

(ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding-ding....)

We are the champions my friend
And we'll keep on fighting 'til the end
we are the champions, we are the champions
No time for losers 'cos we are the champions of the world.

(ding-a-dang-dong we're the champions)

C'mon

(ding-a-dang-dong we're the champions)

of the world...




Chapter 0: Prologue

The feelings inside me are stirring.

Is it time for a revival?

or is it time to take a break?

Or is it me. Oh how could it be.

As life gets faster and faster paced, I lose track, and suddenly it slows again, as if waiting for me.

Do I catch up? Will it speed up and fast forward? Will it leave me struggling with all my efforts to catch up behind?

Do I take a break? Will it slow down more? As if to wait for me? Or will I miss the oppotunity to catch up again.

Relativity. Time goes fast and slow, this is the way I view things, the way I manage my life.

But it comes so close to insanity that I'm gonna implode.

Is there a marker? Is that a mark that I could follow and predict time's movements? I believe there is, but it lies in the depth of experience which I could never dream of reaching in my current state.

So Cruel

Am I gonna just revive the dark side of me? And everything's gonna be fine, but will time slow or speed? Will my efforts go to waste? Can I really catch up? Are you really gonna speed up?

Time will tell as we wait.




Lost in the world.
I feel emotionless.
Time is nothing.
Time flies by, I feel nothing.
But I AM aging.
Time stings.

Screw this.
I feel Screwed.
To the boards of life.
I try and lift my hands.
It hurts.
I can't lift it.
Why? I'm screwed.
Where is the freedom that I seek.
Its in your hands.


I want that freedom.
Give it to me.
Stay quiet and stay screwed to the boards of life.
And I shall grant you what you want.

You know what?
I'm sick of this timeless dimension.
I don't wanna be screwed to the boards of life.
I don't wanna listen to anyone no more.
Screw you.

*Bites Tongue*